This is not something that I have told a lot of people but in 2009 I got heavily into reading up about conspiracy theories. I really enjoyed trying to figure things out at first but it soon became a very negative avenue for me to travel down. It probably was the worst time in my life to start questioning my beliefs in the modern world but I guess that was all part of the learning experience.
The conspiracies coupled with the fact that I had decided to eat my bodyweight in hamburgers and crisps made me into a very cynical and angry person. To the point that I was convinced the world was going to come to some kind of end. Not in the sense nuclear fallout but something close. I let my thoughts carry me away and as a result nothing became worth planning to do, be it a holiday, getting fit, quitting smoking or finding a better job. A common thought that I had was, “what is the point in moving forward with myself if we are doomed anyway?”
It was a dark time to be in my head, I had a lot of things to work through. I quite liked the idea of the world descending into chaos because it meant that I didn’t have to deal with my issues. The reality of the situation was that I woke up each day expecting the worst and after a while I realised that the world just kept turning and I had a choice to make. I could carry on being miserable or try to dig myself out of the hole I had created in my head.
The point that I am trying to get to here is that I wouldn’t want anyone to get to the point where the world ending is a better outcome than tackling their own demons. It’s not a fun place to be. A lot of the time we are exactly where we need to be in order to learn about ourselves and grow; we just don’t always realise it.
Whether you are overweight, underweight or anything in between you need to realise that we can set forth in the right direction for ourselves by striving to be a stronger more rounded person than we were the day before.
This week choose to be better than you were yesterday, choose to approach the world with a new perspective.
Choose to Stay Strong and Keep Moving!